The Empty-ness

A different story of a man, who never thought he would be left alone in the threshold standing rite next to solitude. He would love the world around him. He was full of fun and humor, a Sagittarian by the stars, the stars were in fact always shining on him. The world was a playground for him where he would play the games of laughter with his wits and spontaneity. Immature would be the tag he sometimes get from people but he never answered those comments. His carefree attitude never brought him problems until he realized the real pain he got out of his perception about his attitude. 

He was running in his life constantly. Run and run and he felt like he's done with his duty. This is how the world wants to see him. He gave it all his best as he could. He would tell everyone that he lives the way the world wants to see him. Believing in life like the way it comes, take it the way it comes. Very few people knew that he's an amazing actor and he's acting for the world. Funny though, he was sad inside. The isolation was killing him. He never would admit it everywhere. Yet, he was never a joker to the world. He loved good companies as well. 

But the world is selfish, by default everyone is. The world was always cruel on him. I guess where there is love, there are expectations.  He loved his world, the people in the world and his life in that cruel world. The problem he had however were never understood. He was perceived as an absolute happy-maker. The sad stories were inside burning and never came out. He would want to but he got no ears to hear them. He had a heart too. Expectations were turning out to be a confidence killer. The trust was broken a lot of times. The heart was hammered.

He could feel that he’s unwanted in this world. The love looked surreal. Surprises never surprised him for he knew they were just a mild distraction of his real perception about the world. The world always knew how he felt yet it ignored the fact and gave a “I don’t care” thing to him. Isolated and confined to the misery the world gave him, he gave up his dreams and started living like a saint in isolation. He would rather talk to the stars shining in the sky. At least the stars always shined on him and the brightness was real and something he could trust upon. The window of his dark room was the medium of looking at the world. Shattered by the realities of the surreal world, he decided to choose emptiness. 

-Dedicated to a person I know by heart.

Herdaichhu Sansaar

Boli Saano Prabhaav Thulo
Anautho Byebahar ani anek bichaar
Darshak bhaera baseko chhu ahile
Teshmai baru ananda, herdaichhu sansaar.

Tikho Ma ho ki chhucho aru
Khana bhane eklai khaieko cha prahar
Pidako aago balekai chha dandan
Mukh chhopi yespali herdaichhu sansaar.

Tukreko Mutu Jodna Kati Garho 
Astidekhi sundaichhu harek tukra ko guhaar
Samhaalna khoje pani chhaina ni Bala
Mauntalai angaldai herdaichhu Sansaar

Ekohoro Jindagaiko eklo Yaatri ma
Khoi hiddaichhu yesaimaa bahaar...
wora para kahile nabhetine bho tara
Nayan gaadhera tesaile herdaichhu sansaar


- Surendra

Rangamanch ko patra huun ma

Eklo jindagiko eklo abhaas kasto
Sochda ta lagchha kalpana matra ho....

tara yo sansaar le rangamanch mann parauchha...
sansarko najarmma rangamanchko ma euta patra ho....

Ullaas chharna khojne mero kasto ho baani....
Huna ta haasyaalay ko ma dherai purano chhaatra ho...
Tyo haasyalaylai aaja rangamanch bhanido rahechha....
Tehi rangamanchko ma euta hasilo patra ho...

Dhaad pachhadi badhi bolne charchit manchhe ma...
Agaadi ko sansaar ta dekhawati matra bho.....
satyakathako pani parimaarjit chitran garne....
yo rangamanchko ma euta rangin paatra ho...


We normally are not what we show..people often call it faking or living with double standards..however we know deep down inside..we have the darkest of secrets within us...we'd never want to  expose it.. the world will rather try every bit of its effort to compel us to bring those things out... getting provoked or not, would depend upon our weapon called choice. Let the world make an assumption of u.. clarification is what they can never deserve if they make a wrong one which most of the time happens. However if there are people who accept u the way you are, they can't make assumptions coz they know u practically. Enjoy your own circle and let others not make u a victim of their own assumptions. Treasure every moment the life gives u.

-Surendra

Yespaali Taadhai Basne Bhae

Eklo sansaar ma ramita herdai thie ma Ramitako maajhma sayad sadhai fasne bhae ma Sadhai agaadi aai bhaneko kura

Yespaali bhane kehi nabhani tadhai basne bhae ma..

Maat chadheko ta pakkai pani hoina Yo utsaahlai yespali mann mai kassne bhae ma Timi hera timro mitho sansaaar Dekhieko mitho sapana herna tadhai basne bhae ma

Mitho ta pakkai pani chha yo bhawana

Tara afulai nachinauna kalo moso ghasne bhae ma

Hasilo tyo anuhaarko saundarya nai chhuttai

Tehi saundarya bicharan garna tadhai basne bhae ma

Thaha chha jalnechha yo mutu har kshan har pal

Sanno dussaahasle timro najarma khasne bhae ma

Paaile mero satarkata apnauchhan tesaile

Timrai najarmai basna yespali taadhai basne bhae ma

badhi bolne sangyaa painchha

Anaginti Bhogaai, Jeevanko Peeda,
Tara Pani Yo mannlai Samjhainchha
Ainaa heri aafusanga Kura Gardaa ni
Antamaa badhi bolne Sangyaa painchha

Dautari Aafno Sadhai Nai Pyaro
Kahile kada ta kahile naram pesh ainchha,
Khyaal thattaka mitha prasanga chhedda ni
kina ho aakhirma badhi bolne sangya painchha

Jibro Hatiyaar, Magajko Neeti,
Aatur mannma belbela aafai bhakbhakaincha
Gunaasoko euta sano paath padhda ni
feri pani badhi bolne sangyaa painchha



Mannko paap kaha chha ra bhetnu,
Arkako pani baru khojerai metaainchha,
bho aba ta bhanna pani laaj lagyo
Bina sitti badhi bolne sangyaa painchha,

Mauntaalai angaalyo, aashcharyako prashna,
Boli futaauna kati nana thari sunainchha,
Boliko Prabhaavko chapeta nai ho ki,
Thorai bolda ni badhi bolne sangyaa painchha

Surendra Bdr. K.C.

life.....how i feel

It’s an amazing life. I wonder a lot of times, happiness has it’s own share in life. The sadness comes in bulk. It has to be managed or else it messes up everything. It’s said right things come at right time. Sadness is never a right thing. I don’t understand why does sadness come most of the time and one can’t be happy all the time. If in order to be happy, the so called right thing, you have to wait for the right time, u sure are going through a wrong time of ur life. Can life be generalized like this?

People are hard to understand. I get to see a lot of daily quotes in face-book. Some really touch my heart and some just pierce it hard. The quotes go like “the one who laughs a lot is sad from inside, and needs love”..and I try to get inside the quote. I try to fit myself in. The funny thing is I try to fit in just because few of my friends have told me this, that I laugh a lot and make others happy but I am sad from inside. The art of making other laugh and remaining happy then seems like I m doing injustice to myself by being hideous. But I was like this only from my childhood. The random humor was always a part of me, sometime appreciated, sometime blasted and a lot of times laughed at. I wonder now I was like this even when I was 11 years old and what was the sad story that was happening in my life then? I am literally trying to interpret those days with the quotes mentioned above and I do not fit in at all.

I cherish my life for I have gained a lot of learning experiences in various phases of life. Life has changed a lot over a period of time. Still the thing that I’ve never left in me is my smile that has always balanced every bit of emotions that I’ve come across in life. I picture life in a straight highway. Everyone has a life in a straight highway. A lot of times there are intersections between the straight highways out of which we get to meet different lives and different stories. Some will give us rude looks for having interrupted their walk of life. Some find it better to stop by during the intersection and share experiences for a while. They gradually become a part of your life. For sometime they will stay with u..may be they would also want to walk straight in ur highway creating another lane by marking a new highway. But the highway is unpredictable. There are further intersections in the form of situations, the time game, the need game, the choice game out of which distractions may arise. The consequences may be in the form of ur face going downwards with sadness again because that story may part away from you. The unpredictability of life however gives u  a lesson that u can’t leave ur highway simply with reasons like these and not walk at all.

U have a life that is gifted for you have seen the world through your beautiful eyes. The mesmerizing beauty of life’s every good moments to the harsh realities of bad moments, situations that have changed ur visions over different period of time with respect to various issues in life have given you a realization of the fact that life is indeed beautiful. The perfection has always been a myth. Life has never been perfect. But all this time if we have never tried, it’s better if we give one chance of standing rite next to perfection. I personally believe in embracing my imperfections. It will lead to self realization of what needs to be done  NOW. The life is beautiful if it is perceived and it’s always good if we can take it the way it comes. Surprises are essential after all and we never plan for the reaction. It comes naturally in a natural life we have.

-          Surendra Bdr. K.C.